Forgiven much?

This morning just thinking of how much I love
Jesus...      

Simon the Pharisee invites Jesus for supper 
and while they reclining  
and eating  
some woman shows up and starts
crying on Jesus' feet and wiping them  
with her tears and then pouring perfume on them...     

Jesus knows Simon's heart is judging Him   
and He points that out.... 
Simon has not even been a good host to Him....    
Yet a stranger, a person who was not welcome has gone 
out of her way to Bless Him....
ref Luke 7:36-47

Jesus pointed out the difference:
Little forgiven = Little love
Much forgiven = Much love....

and then He forgave her Sins...

and that messed with the rest of the dinner party.... :P
ref Luke 7:48-50

Made me wonder....
How much do I love Jesus?
Would I enter a stranger's house
and brave the humiliation and judging stares
to love on Him?
Would I be 'socially inappropriate'?
because I have been forgiven much?

Have I been forgiven much?
or am I a pretty good guy....?

Hmm...

Lord, I am thinking about
how much I need You....

I suspect I need You much more
than I think I do......

I suspect that I receive more Grace
from You than I know....

....Please forgive me.

I want to Love You more...
But what holds me back?
   Fear of what others think?
      No need of You?
         The way I have been brought up - Social norms....?

Open my heart Lord
just a little bit more... :)

Thank You
Jesus

...Thank You.

PJ