only $10,000?

I was reading a 'Kingdom of Heaven is like' story...
You remember the one... 
The one about the servant who owed 10,000 x 1 million $  
and was forgiven by the king 
but then went and didn't forgive his fellow servant $10,000. 
and the king 'undid' the forgiveness of the unpayable debt... 
because the forgiveness had not changed the man's value system 
to receive it and rest in it  
and pass it on.... 
find it in Matt 18:21-35   

and I remembered Jesus said a number of times
'I desire mercy, not judgement...' Matt 9:13, 12:7, 18:33,34

I can receive mercy
but it comes at the 'cost' of passing it on...
I can't give judgement
AND receive mercy...
One
or the other...

choose.

Lord,
I love to receive mercy from You
but I seem to need to
get justice from those around me...
Hmm....

Could I trust You to supply my needs?
Could I let go of my 'right' to get what is owing me....
and give
mercy...?

I think so.
I choose so...
Let it go...
it's only $10,000....
so that I can receive
from You....
so much more....

Yeah.

PJ