Wonder

This morning I found it interesting that when
Jesus talks about his betrayal, suffering, and death 
there is a 'blindness' or 'deafness'    
for the disciples so they can't seem understand Him.  
In addition to this, it seems that often after Jesus 
talks about those things 
the disciples would have a discussion 
about who of them is the greatest.... 
See Mk 9:31-34, 10:33-37 

It is a shocking contrast.
Jesus their leader is going to die.
They are quibbling about how awesome they are...

As men who should have been 'in tune' with Jesus and His teaching
more than anyone... how could they miss the mark so badly?

Hmmm...

As a pilot I am told that 'expectation' forms a strong
impression of what I think 'should come next'....
and that if that expectation is wrong
I will likely misinterpret and even 'miss hear' what does come....

For the disciples...
They knew Jesus was a King
They assumed He would be forming a government....
Obviously then He would be looking for good people
to run it with Him...
and since He had chosen them to be His disciples
they were on the short list
and obviously were pretty 'awesome' guys....

So....

it makes me wonder.

that when I have expectations of my life in Jesus
and He speaks to me
What am I expecting....?
What am I missing.....?

Lord,
I know You do speak to me
- You spoke to the disciples too.....
How can I hear You through ears that
have not anticipated
what Your answer is going to be...

When I read Your word
When Your Spirit prompts
When my senses are alive to Your Presence
help me not misunderstand
not anticipate Your answer
but wait
with wonder....

Yeah.

PJ